From Fiction to Reality

I have so much to be grateful for in my life. I have time to take care of myself; time to reflect; time to follow my curiosity; time for adventures; time to give to others; time to pursue my passion. What else could I ask for? The answer should be nothing, but something feels off. I recently came across a question that has disrupted my thinking because I don't have the answers for myself. How Will Your Life Look if you Stay on Your Current Path? Immediately my mind went to defending my current path: I will be healthy, strong, rested, connected, and fulfilled. And while all of this might be true, my mind also went to areas of my life where I don't feel are aligned with what I want for myself. Honestly, I worry that my life might become stagnant—like walking in the same place and going nowhere, even if the scenery is beautiful. That’s why I’ve never enjoyed exercising on a treadmill or stationary bike, even with a screen displaying exotic scenery, because it lacks the authenticity of truly being in the moment and feeling the sweat on my skin, the rhythm of my breath, and the world around me. Without change, life’s beauty is only a reflection, not an actual journey.

I know where I want to go and I have done a lot of footwork to prepare myself for my journey but somehow the plan is caught up in the red tape of HOW? I know the what and why but I don't have a map of how and that keeps me second guessing myself and searching for more information.

Living in my head with a bunch of information about what I want to do is not living; I don't want my life to be a fictional story- I want it to be an autobiography that I shape with experiences no matter how many failures or mistakes it includes. I want my story to represent the thrilling unknown twists and turns of being human. I want to leap off the cliff of uncertainty and land firmly on my feet, so I can feel the pulse of life’s shockwaves reverberate through me.